So, it is now November, Lizzy will be 6 months old soon, bills are piling up, and I'm still yurning to return to ballet. I need to find income. Lizzy won't take a bottle and I really don't want to leave her to go to work. I need dance classes to get my untoned and out of shape self ready to audition. I have 4 months roughly to get it together. If I could get back into the company she could come to rehearsal with me. She's a good baby. There are so many ballerina's in major companies that have returned to ballet post partum and have danced better than before. My soul just feels so broken without ballet. Chris and Lizzy sure do make life wonderful don't get me wrong but I really want to dance too. GRRRR!!!!