Monday, June 28, 2010


Photo of the rose garden fountain at Ballindaloch Castle in Scotland. Our Honeymoon 2007.

Lately the biggest word for me has been serenity. How to find it? How to live it? I have encountered so many walls recently and I can only hope to find the way around or over them. Or at least to find a better path to serenity.

Some words to live by:

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity

to accept all things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and the wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting the He will make all things right

If I surrender to His will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.


Saturday, June 12, 2010

Just keep swimming........

I have to state the obvious that life is a bunch of ups, downs, and plateaus. I think it's the plateaus that make things difficult and man am I on a doozie. I am trying to make things happen. Get back to class as much as possible, get back to teaching hopefully, back to the company hopefully, and back to school in the long run. On top of all that I am trying to bring in more money so Chris and I can give Lizzy a home. Not a room; a home. I am so thankful for my parents to help us out so much while we are getting things together to find a place, but it's taking a toll on me. I am longing for more space, a kitchen of my own, and mostly a place that Lizzy can roam about and I dont have to worry about what she's getting into. I want her to feel that freedom. My soul really needs things to start happening and I need it fast. I think Chris needs it as well. To quote "Finding Nemo".... Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. For now I'm just keeping my head above water and I'm going to keep going to finally make it ashore. I know in my heart and my head what I have to do, the mindset I need to be in, and how I need to act. Now I just need to apply it. I am content, but I must say I'm longing for things to be on the up and up once more.