When someone tells you that ballerina's are nuts BELIEVE THEM 100%. A ballerina spends hours upon hours working on perfection. Whether it is to be the best they can be or better then the rest at their craft. They spend hours on end making sure their bodies are working and looking the best they can. We find total joy in having a good class. We feel flight, freedom, and spiritual release in performing. We work so hard to make it look easy (or at least try).
......And then...............there are those days when even though we are giving our all to the art and athletesism of ballet; we are our own worst enemy. We are our toughest critics and have the hardest of times believing that we are capable of having an off day. Oh the funks we can get ourselves into. But the most amazing thing is that we could be in total tears, histerical and the moment we take a step on stage you wouldn't know the difference.
It is this time on stage, this breath in time of releasing the cares, woes, and worries....all the things that are wrong in the world/ your world that make all the blood, sweat, tears, tourture and grandure worth while. It's an addiction to the freedom; to capturing the audience and putting them into your pocket keeping them ever so hypnotized by the story you are creating for them. Never the wiser to the dedication that was put in.
So yes, we ballerina's are nuts. In all that we put ourselves through and the greedy enjoyment we get out of it...... I'm proud to say I'm a dancer and would not change this for the world.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
I couldn't resist! lol ..... It's Nutcracker season. The chill in the air, the smell of the leaves, getting all wrapped up in tights and warm up gear and headed to rehearsal. God I LOVE IT!!!! So, I'm a member of the Atlantic City Ballet. I'm so happy. Even though I'm an apprentice for the time being. I'm once again doing what I love. I'll be dancing 2 roles that I've done in the past when I was much younger but hey.... I've got to get started again somewhere and I'll take what I can get. But I can't wait to be back in the theater. I may just start crying when I walk in the theater again. It's such an awesome feeling to me and a memory I hold so vivid in my mind. The depth of the feeling is just so strong and compelling and no words could possibly describe what it means to me. The first show is December 3. That's 26 more days until I get the chance to fly again!